Amusing thoughts and lots of sayings

I totally forgot that I had written a blog and obviously never posted it. I was going to add or change something on it but didn't have the time right then so I saved it. It is interesting to me to find this now and remember what I was feeling about 7 months ago. I figured I would share it now just for fun.

Kellin and I have been married for almost 6 years. It has just been the two of us for a long time and adding a new one in to the mix will really change things. People keep telling us that. "Your life is about to change", some add "and it is for the better". We have been trying to have a child for 4 1/2 years. We have been wanting this change for a long time and know that it will be very different. We are enjoying our freedom now, like a few days ago we went out for coffee at nine and only got home after 1 am or quickly picking up and going to Stbh. for the weekend or a night without having to do much preparing. But we are definitely looking forward to the change this little one is going to bring to our lives.
In my last blog, I talked about a man that we met who founded an organization in Zambia called Seeds of Hope. We talked to him about some of the processes that he had to go through for his adoption through Zambia and we talked a bit about the education seminar.
We learnt in the seminar about some of the bonding issues and diseases they could have with adopted children, plus racial issues with intercountry adoption. It was about two years ago that we went to this seminar, and it is a good thing we have a huge binder of all the information that we learnt so that we can go back and read it all again when the time comes. But these things can only prepare you so far.
I liked the seminar and thought it was very helpful and Kellin and I often joked that all parents should have to go through a seminar to have children. But now that we are expecting our first baby, we feel so unprepared. People keep asking us if we are ready. And I tell them, "Yes, as much as we can be." I don't think any seminar could fully prepare you for the change it will be in our lives, because each baby is different. We don't feel totally unprepared, we have been around babies before, so it isn't all unfamiliar territory, but to be the soul providers is much different than aunt and uncle. I am trying to read all the information I can get my hands on and ask lots of questions. The same types of things that I did when our paperwork first got to Ethiopia. All the excitement and anticipation I had for our adoption, is now focused on our pregnancy, delivery, and taking the new baby home.